Single Status Update
I don't usually do public status updates anywhere, but I kinda feel the need to pst something.
Over the weekend, I had an argument with my closest friend. She's been like a sister to me since June, and then stuff happened, we argued, and I've been really worried/upset about what to do. Scared, dare I say. Often times when things like this happen irl, I end up posting and being online more, which is nice because I can vent and some people may actually understand. Thankfully, I do have some good friends here.
Avenge, Kako, Ace, looking at you. Thanks so much you two. I owe you both big time.
As for my friend, it's been a struggle. She has her own set of issues that I'm not going to delve into, but it takes its toll on me cuz I wanna help her, but it's hard. What I can never understand is why someone calls you their brother and tells you how much they care and how much they value your friendship and how they never want you to leave, then as soon as there's any sort of major argument, they're like 'I have to rethink our friendship' Which hurt. Bad. So I apologize if I seemed off or kinda rude this past week. I haven't had a good week, between the argument and being exhausted from not sleeping. Yes, I have struggled to stay asleep through an entire night. Waking up at 2, 3, 4 am sucks, then trying to go to school and function. Then come home and deal with life and work and other things.
What needs saying will be said, and even though I'm kinda feeling sad again while writing this, I need to get it out of my system.
Thank you all for being here. Those I interact with on a regular basis (you know who you are), I thank you. I really do. Somehow after a few posts and convo's, I manage a laugh or at least I feel somewhat better. Truthfully, there was a time a couple months ago where I was seriously contemplating running away from home and leaving it all behind. Why I didn't I can't really say, but it was partially due to friends I have. I didn't want to not be able to talk with those I do here, and have some fun playing games.
WoWS has been fun (mostly), and it's one thing besides writing and Netflix that helps distract me and focus on something that isn't my struggles IRL for a few hours at a time.
I'm just rambling now, but I got the idea for this post (which I had been thinking about doing anyway) after reading Mental_Model_Zao's profile/status update. Anyway, enough of me blathering on. I have to walk the dog, but thanks for listening, and I do sincerely apologise for anyone I may have upset this week because I wasn't doing well.
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And followed and friended where if not for the forum search box I would never found this status of yours, I understand what you lot are going through to the point that a hug is really needed in real life.
*hugs Power* it happens to anyone regardless of who they are but we experience the same situation that causes us to express our negative thoughts that's what makes us the same, human.
I like to roleplay the cute cheerful heavy cruiser from KanColle to make people feel better
Daiski desu~ Kako-chan will stand up restored for you no matter how hard beaten down she is. /^.\\ v
*hugs back* Thanks man.
Kako, again, thank you. *hugs* It does, and while that sucks, its something we have to live with. Sometimes yeah, you just want a hug from a close friend to know everything's gonna be okay. I try to crack jokes or make sly comments to help myself and others feel better. It usually works.